Dear 37 Year Old Self,
This is not a year of my life I would like to relive, however I am sure one day when I look back I will think I probably grew more this year than in others. One day...
This year is most marked by loss. I learned way more than I ever wished to learn about loss. My kind & loving sister-in-law Stephanie, my loyal dog Doc and my sweet mother-in-law Pat. All gone. Forever. It sucks, it's incredibly painful, it's not fair, but still...it is.
Life goes on...
My children turned 10, 9 and 14. Um, hello? How is this possible? They are not perfect, but they are perfect for me. I adore them.
Lover & I celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary! I love him even more than the day I married him. When I count my blessings, he is at the top of the list.
I had my own health scares. More than once. I was so scared. I am hopeful and thankful my fears were put to rest. I want to live to see my children grow up, get married, have lives, have babies. I want to be an old wrinkly lady with my old wrinkly husband...one day, not too soon, but one day.
Advice? Not really, I think you're doing a pretty good job. You are going to make mistakes, you are going to get some things right. Embrace it.
Love,
Me
