Tuesday, June 26, 2012

Dear 37...

Dear 37 Year Old Self,

This is not a year of my life I would like to relive, however I am sure one day when I look back I will think I probably grew more this year than in others.  One day...

This year is most marked by loss.  I learned way more than I ever wished to learn about loss.  My kind & loving sister-in-law Stephanie, my loyal dog Doc and my sweet mother-in-law Pat.  All gone.  Forever.  It sucks, it's incredibly painful, it's not fair, but still...it is.

Life goes on...

My children turned 10, 9 and 14.  Um, hello?  How is this possible?  They are not perfect, but they are perfect for me.  I adore them.

Lover & I celebrated our 16th wedding anniversary!  I love him even more than the day I married him.  When I count my blessings, he is at the top of the list.

I had my own health scares.  More than once.  I was so scared.  I am hopeful and thankful my fears were put to rest.  I want to live to see my children grow up, get married, have lives, have babies.  I want to be an old wrinkly lady with my old wrinkly husband...one day, not too soon, but one day.

Advice?  Not really, I think you're doing a pretty good job.  You are going to make mistakes, you are going to get some things right.  Embrace it.